Wednesday, 24 March 2010

I want to be one of them

All the girls in all these thinspo pictures have all done it..they have all managed to get down to a weight where they look absolutely gorgeous at, so why can't I just be like that too? Why can't we all?
It's so hard to get to that goal, to that place I will feel totally happy and satisfied at, but getting there must feel amazing.
I can't wait to get down to my goal and feel like that, to feel like it's all been worth it, but I'm worried that by then my relationship with food will be so disfunctional and unhealthy that I wont be able to apreciate that I have finaly achieved what I have worked so very hard for.
I wonder if all these beautiful skinny girls still think they need to loose weight to look even better?
I hope you guys are feeling less confused about this all than me and that a little bit of thinspo helps you :) Any answers?? xx

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

This is me.

I've been bloging for almost 4 months now and so I thought I should tell you a little bit about myself.
I grew up in Portugal. Just below the capital, Lisbon.
My parents always had money and we lived in a beautiful house. I was surounded by my best friends who I loved. I had always done well in school and believe it or not I was always seen as the 'skinny' one of the group. When I was 13 my dad was made redundant from his job and about a month before my 14th birthday we moved to England. I have been here for about 3 and a half years now. I hated it when I first arrived, but things are strating to fall into place now. I have made amazing friends and a boyfriend who is wonderful to me. In case you were wondering I never had a Portuguese accent :P
I learnet to speak english when I was little (my mum is english) so meeting people and making friends wasn't much of a problem.
I am going to university in september which I'm super exited about.
So things are good :)
What else could I ask for, right?
I am finally begining to feel happy here, I feel I fit in with everyone but the fact that I am so unhappy about my weight is always in my head and it drives me crazy. I'm bored of it, I'm bored of it rulling my life constantly.

Anyway...enough about me, here's some thinspo for you guys :)x