This is me.

I've been bloging for almost 4 months now and so I thought I should tell you a little bit about myself.
I grew up in Portugal. Just below the capital, Lisbon.
My parents always had money and we lived in a beautiful house. I was surounded by my best friends who I loved. I had always done well in school and believe it or not I was always seen as the 'skinny' one of the group. When I was 13 my dad was made redundant from his job and about a month before my 14th birthday we moved to England. I have been here for about 3 and a half years now. I hated it when I first arrived, but things are strating to fall into place now. I have made amazing friends and a boyfriend who is wonderful to me. In case you were wondering I never had a Portuguese accent :P
I learnet to speak english when I was little (my mum is english) so meeting people and making friends wasn't much of a problem.
I am going to university in september which I'm super exited about. So things are good :)
What else could I ask for, right?
I am finally begining to feel happy here, I feel I fit in with everyone but the fact that I am so unhappy about my weight is always in my head and it drives me crazy. I'm bored of it, I'm bored of it rulling my life constantly.

Anyway...enough about me, here's some thinspo for you guys :)x

Thinspo Pics :)

I haven't done very well this weekend, I had half a tub of icecream on friday and a bit of a binge last night...I did well all week so I don't feel all that bad for once.

I just booked a summer holiday to Portugal with my boyfriend and some other friends..one of the girls coming with us is super skinny and gorgeous and watches everything she eats.
I want to have reached my target by then so I can just enjoy it and not have to worry about how fat I look in my bikini.

I thought it was about time I posted some thinspo for you, it's been too long since I've done it and a bit of motivation is always good :)
Sorry if I've already used a couple of these!

back again :(

I have tryed so hard for the past 3 months and it's all seemed to go out the window now...I've put on weight and it feels shitty. I've become weak again.

So I've been lying in bead all morning avoiding the kitchen at all costs. I'm going for a curry with my boyfriend's family for mothers day later and I'm shitting myself about it.

I need to get away from food. Why does it seem to be so unavoidable...grrrr..so unfair!!! It's everywhere.

I'm feeling frustrated.

Is it possible to get back on track after such a set back?

I hope so cos I couldn't deal with going back to feeling like a fat pig all the time.

Anyway...I hope all is well with you guys and that you are doing better than me.

I need to get back on track so badly. Any tips?

I want to go back to steping on the scales every morning and seing a difference. Seeing that I have actually lost weight, cos it's the best feeling in the world and I miss it...

Just a quick update..

Hey skinnies :)
Just wanted to let you know that I went to the clinic last night with my boyfriend and I'm not pregnant (THANK GOD!).
They made me pee in a pot and stik a pregnancy test in it then gave us a bag of condoms lol
I'm really happy and relieved, but I guess this means I'm missing periods because of my new lack of food..oh well, i'm not going to go back to eating how I did before. I could never do that. So I guess when I decide I want babies i can take up eating cake again.
Progress is extremely slow! I've been keeping up with my exercise quite well, but my eating hasn't been all that good. I eat just enough to stay at the weight I'm at now but if I had a little less then I might actually lose some weight..what do you guys think about fasting? Is it the only way to lose fast? :S ... When I know I'm going to be drinking I don't eat during the day so that I get drunk on less alcohol (and therefore don't have to buy loads of drink :P) and I'm going to a friend's 18th tomorrow after work so I was thinking it would be the perfect opportunity..although no food and alcohol always seems to make me feel very sick :P...I'll see how it goes and get back to you.
I need to loose some weight fast, just to get motivated again. I do so well during the day and then it gets to dinner time and it all comes crashing down. All the will power just flies out the window and for some reason I get it in my head that the fat is just going to melt off with no effort what so ever :-/ ..not the most rational theory in the world..

Well, enough of my rant. I will post something when I actually have some positive or interesting tinformation for you. My laptop has had to be fixed so once again I am using my parents computor which means no thinspo for you guys...sorry it's been so very very long. I will try and find some time to post up some thinspiration. I have a busy weekend, but hopefully next week!

Hope you guys are making more progress than I am, any tips? xxx

I think the legs are leaving!

Yes I think it might finally be happening!
I've been working so hard on my leg exercises and they really seem to be toning up and maybe even slimming down. I'm really happy. I think I'm starting to do abit better now. I put on weight after I got back from new york because I was so used to just just eating when I wanted again and I got up to 51.5kg (113.5 pounds) which I felt really crap about. I'm back down to just over 50kg (111.3 pounds) now so I'm feeling more positive that the weight is actually comming off again.
I have just spend about 3 weeks where I just could not lose any weight even if I didn't eat very much at all and exercised like a crazy person, but I think I'm starting to lose some again, thank god!! There is nothing worse than working really hard and getting nothing out of it. It's so dissapointing to weigh myself and not see any difference (or see an increse :S).
It feels great losing the weight but I'm slightly worried because my periods have stoped. I'm really late and I'm 99% sure I'm not pregnant. I'm not underweight. I'm at a healthy BMI, but I was speaking to one of my close friends who also lost a lot of weight very quikly (3 stone/42 pounds in 4 months!) and she told me that even before she became underweight just the rapid weight loss made her periods stop, so this may be the reason?
I'm going to the clinic with my boyfriend soon just in case. They have given me a free pregnancy test before and want to get another one just to be sure. It will put my mind at rest anyway...hopefully!
I have done well today I think. I had some lettuce and cherry tomatoes when I got up and a couple of pieces of toast with peanutbutter and jam (my favourite! <3)>